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sugarcyanide @ 2006-12-13T22:58:00

2006-12-14T03:58:29Z

i love myspace.

sugarcyanide @ 2005-10-02T18:49:00

2005-10-02T22:52:33Z

i have a new journal. after 2 years,
its time to move on to the new me.
if you want it, comment here, i'll add you.

sugarcyanide @ 2005-08-04T03:18:00

2005-08-04T07:19:12Z

iStopIt.

LMFAO!!
crazy shit.

sugarcyanide @ 2003-07-01T23:07:00

2005-05-21T04:23:40Z

WOOOOOO

new layout.

feat. Brody from The Distillers ;]

sugarcyanide <~GO LOOK!

sugarcyanide @ 2005-04-26T17:59:00

2005-04-26T22:13:41Z

Reply and I'll tell you something I like about you.

Afterward, copy and paste this into your own journal.

people are so stupid. i can't even BEGIN to explain. if i did, i know i'd have to tell people individually, 'its not about you'. but whatever. you don't have to be my friend and i don't have to even talk to you. but i try and i do. you motherfuckers are so retarded. stop taking advantage of me before i come to your houses and slit your necks. i'm so fed up. beyond infuriated.

this entry isn't even coherent. i'm so close to giving up on people..

sugarcyanide @ 2005-04-18T19:27:00

2005-04-18T23:30:09Z

today was such a nice day. i can't wait till summer!

stolen from alexis..even though we're not friends

2005-01-26T13:21:29Z

Comment anonymously on this entry with:
1. One secret.
2. One compliment about me.
3. One non-compliment about me.
4. One love note.
5. Lyrics to a song.
6. How long we've been friends.
7. And a hint to who you are.

remember..be anonymous ;P

i stole it from the peoples on my friends list

2005-01-13T02:06:37Z

I. Reply to this post, because I would like to say a couple of words about you.
II. I will also tell you which songs remind me of you when I hear them.
III. I will also tell you what celebrity/movie character/public person you remind me of, either personality-wise or looks-wise.
IV. I will also give ONE WORD that I associate with you when I think of you.

sugarcyanide @ 2004-12-31T13:17:00

2004-12-31T18:31:58Z

oh, grow the fuck up and move on.

you've become everything you used to hate. so whos the traitor now? its unfair that i want better for myself while you could care less? its not that i don't ike you, its the things you do that i don't like. </font>

ATTN: ALL POTENTIAL LOVERS

2004-12-19T06:56:55Z

Whats your name?
Your age?
How tall are you?
Where do you live?
What are you're top 5 favorite bands?
Have you had sex?
Do you like to cuddle?
Can you make me laugh and smile?
Do you like making funny faces?
Do you like my style?
What do you like about me?
What do you like about me physically?
Are you a relationship kind of guy?
Could you handle a relationship right now?
Do you mind public affection?
Are you shy?
What can you promise me in a relationship?
Could you fit in a pair of my jeans?
Would you be good moral support for my music?
Would you spend alot of time with me?
Would u call me at least once a day?
Do you get jelous eaisly?
Would you stay up all nite with me just to talk about nothing?
Can we fall asleep in eachothers arms?
Do you like chocolate?
If you can offer me a real relationship,should I pick you and why?
Would you play with me in the snow/rain?
What kind of music do you like?
Do you play any instruments?

sugarcyanide @ 2004-12-02T21:56:00

2004-12-03T02:59:58Z

I wish I were able to really help someone through a tough time. Maybe a helping them handle things or but be there for them to talk to and give them insightful advice.

Then, I think maybe I'd be a better person.

I haven't geen too good a person lately, is all.

sugarcyanide @ 2004-11-14T23:05:00

2004-11-15T04:08:19Z

OMG I LOVE THE 80s!!

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head, I want to drown my sorrows
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
These dreams in which I'm dying, are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad World, mad World

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And they feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher, tell me whats my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
These dreams in which I'm dying, are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad World, mad World
Enlargen your world
Mad World

♥ ♥

sugarcyanide @ 2004-10-30T23:49:00

2004-10-31T03:53:44Z

UGH!!!!

I make myself want to have terminal seizures.

How is it that I am able to make myself feel so bad in such a short, spastic moment?

my words are mocking the deaf ears they have fallen on

2004-10-21T01:32:21Z

You know, I really have extremely little-no tollerance for shallow, narrow-minded people. I really do. It makes me sick to see that people would not talk to someone or be around them in general just because they're an 'outcast' compared to the majority. I mean I understand that you sometimes don't want people to talk..but still. Wouldn't you rather be a friend to someone when they're extremely vulnerable than turn your back on them when they need you the most?

Eh, I'm talking about a certain situation..but I'd rather not elaborate. This type of thing keeps repeating. Don't people get sick of it? Ever?

♥

sugarcyanide @ 2004-10-14T17:03:00

2004-10-14T21:04:21Z

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
sugarcyanide goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as myself.
________paragon gives you 1 teal raspberry-flavoured gummy fruits.
___fallinqstarr gives you 18 dark green orange-flavoured wafers.
cindylouwho666 tricks you! You get a scratched CD.
emo_commando tricks you! You lose 15 pieces of candy!
gender_xing tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
icevein gives you 4 blue cola-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
ilikerockx tricks you! You get a piece of paper.
nothingserious tricks you! You get a used tissue.
pantiewhore gives you 4 tan pineapple-flavoured miniature candy bars.
takemychances tricks you! You lose 7 pieces of candy!
sugarcyanide ends up with 4 pieces of candy, a scratched CD, a piece of paper, and a used tissue.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

that sucks, huh?

sugarcyanide @ 2004-10-13T18:38:00

2004-10-13T22:45:49Z

Pope John Drama Club
One Act Plays
FOUR LITTLE WORDS
and THE WOMEN OF TROY
Directed by Kelli Gaynor

Fri. Oct. 29th at 8pm
Sun. Oct. 31st at 2pm
Tickets at the door.
www.popejohndrama.4t.com

sugarcyanide @ 2004-10-12T16:26:00

2004-10-13T20:27:13Z

THE ULTIMATE SILENCE
October 12, 1998

Listen to the mustn'ts, child.
Listen to the don'ts.
Listen to the shouldn'ts,
The impossibles, the won'ts.
Listen to the never haves,
Then listen close to me ...
Anything can happen, child.
Anything can be.

~ Shel Silverstein

Six years ago today, Matthew Shepard was murdered for being homosexual.

What will you do to end the silence?

Click here to post this on your own page or weblog

♥

sugarcyanide @ 2004-10-09T09:55:00

2004-10-09T17:05:18Z

A is for Age: 15
B is for boyfriend: nope
C is for career: so many..right now, lawyer/cosmetologist
D is for Dad's name: Kevin
E is for Essential item to bring to a party: a good mood...and some food
F is for favorite song at the moment: Sleeping In - The Postal Service or I'm Okay - My Chemical Romance
G is for girlfriend: noope
H is for Hometown: Home of the blue and gold...Malden (how I miss thee)
I is for Instrument(s)you play: alto/bari sax, trombone, oboe, trumpet(kinda), and I'm teaching myself guitar
J is for Jam or jelly you like: grape or strawberry
K is for kids: none..ever
L is for Living arrangements: a house?
M is for Mom's name: Mylene
N is for name of best friend: too many.. Erica, Gabby, Jaimee, Mikey, Jess...eh
O is for overnight hospital stays: 1
P is for Phobias: I'm afraid of things in the dark and being startled..that scares me too?
Q is Quote you like: I can't think of any ;[
R is Realationship that lasted the longest: AJ, psh
S is for Secret never told: um..it shall remain never told, as well
T is for Time you wake up: like 6am before...or after.
U is for Unique trait: I'm like a rock
V is for Vegetable you like: spinach, broccoli
W is for What Bothers You Most: people, usually
X is for X-rays you've had: like 10
Y is for Yummy food you make: I suck at cooking. But my cookies and banana bread are yummy as hell
Z is for Zodiac: Cancer

I have a feeling that today is gonna be pretty fun. Even if I'm going out with my mother, her mulletted friend, and my aunt. Well, who can resist when people want to buy you things?

♥

sugarcyanide @ 2004-10-07T20:44:00

2004-10-08T03:49:39Z

OMG...I got my progress report back..two days ago. and I got ALL b+s..well and 2 a's BUT..as a 'reward' my mom offered to buy me new bras (?)
WTF?! lmao since when does a reward involve something you absolutely need? yah right, I made her ass pay for all of my stuff then told her we could get bras on friday..

thats it.

oh yeah

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENN !!!

theres only 12 minutes left in the day, but I still love you to bits and pieces.

sugarcyanide @ 2004-10-01T19:06:00

2004-10-01T23:14:55Z

another night home alone.
everyone is upset for some reason.
not just gabby, because I suck to her.

fucking a.

on the..er..brightside...?
my cousin thinks i'm the hottest person ever.

eeeewwwwwwwwww

hahahahaha...he needs some help

Lefrak Killa: yea.....cant wait till im come thru
xoxihateyou2xox: yeah right
Lefrak Killa: we can really HANG out
Lefrak Killa: lol
Lefrak Killa: sike...
Lefrak Killa: we might not want to do that
xoxihateyou2xox: empty promises..
xoxihateyou2xox: lol
xoxihateyou2xox: no..
Lefrak Killa: just incase
xoxihateyou2xox: just at the house
Lefrak Killa: i slip
Lefrak Killa: lol
xoxihateyou2xox: lol?
xoxihateyou2xox: you slip?
Lefrak Killa: yes....as in bust out my condom
xoxihateyou2xox: freak...
Lefrak Killa: den we go'n have retarted kids
Lefrak Killa: lol
Lefrak Killa: ABORTION
Lefrak Killa: Mylene would kill me
xoxihateyou2xox: eww you freak I'D kill you

-barf-
though i have to admit. he's not ugly because he IS a Larsen (hah)

♥

sugarcyanide @ 2004-09-25T15:02:00

2004-09-25T19:04:29Z

Last night I had this weird ass dream that made me think..alot.

It was very odd but it struck me as nice.

sugarcyanide @ 2004-09-23T23:29:00

2004-09-24T03:35:01Z

Sometimes I wish words could come out as easily as they popped into my head.
Along with that, there'd be no regretion, rejection, and hurt feelings.

Till then, I think I'll just keep quiet.

Its for the best.

Not to mention it goes great with my low, nonexsistent, barely-a-whisper voice.

sugarcyanide @ 2004-09-22T22:14:00

2004-09-23T02:21:48Z

Damn, I'm sick as a dog.

I think I said that already..but it should be common knowledge by now.

I miss my voice soo much.
Though, I wouldn't mind that sexy,
manly voice for a few days. ;]

I've made some new friends this year,
like kayla..she's not as bad as everyone says.
In fact, she's gotten alot better than last year
so thats a plus.

other than that, school is a fucking drag
i have tons of homework and such little time to do it.

Jess has faith in me though,
so hopefully I'll at least get all B's.
She even offered to help with some of it.

I'm so tired. and its only 10;17.

BLAH!!!

I hate homework.

THIS UPDATE WAS SOOOO POINTLESS!!!

oh well ;]

sugarcyanide @ 2004-09-21T21:10:00

2004-09-22T01:15:13Z

Thinking of stories is easy..

getting them on paper in a way that is comprehendable by everyone else is hard as fuck.

Yeah, short stories x 3, two essays, and other homework..looks like I won't be getting much credit for anything this week.

>.<

On top of it all, I'm sick.

Where's that gun when I need it??

sugarcyanide @ 2004-09-18T00:24:00

2004-09-18T04:25:25Z

Hard Love is a good book.

Short and bittersweet, it gives you alot to think about and shit like that.

I think I'm going to go read it again.

Oh yeah, name some good books I should read, because I love to read and need to keep myself occupied. Don't be afraid to lend them to me either. I take very good care of books and treat them fairly well..in fact, better than I treat some of my family. So yeah..BOOKS!

♥